Though I'm not married, I can already feel the hurt and the pain that may come in a marriage. For sanctification sake, it tastes like to death to love someone that's difficult to love, especially when you see some of the things that you despise and hate, only to realize that you're just as repugnant. Only Jesus can break that taste into sweet serenity when one tastes the breadth, length, height and depth of His love. The grace and mercy that He has upon our weary and broken soul is beyond my absolute comprehension.
Marriage is not for the faint of heart. And I can see a glimpse of why marriage has to be an abiding journey with the Divine Maker. Man cannot handle marriage (hardcore sanctification) without the Creator, Himself.
Though there is joy in marriage, there is also pain.
I'm going to be honest: Today is one of those days that I wish I wasn't dating.
Jesus, open my eyes and expand my heart to receive Your refining fire for my sin-ridden heart. Make me new, bright, and fiery, that burns with Your Presence upon my failing soul. Create in me a new heart, for my heart is hard as stone.
