Day to Day - is it okay to be real around here?

Today I’m learning about the day to day fights. The fight within me that the Holy Spirit’s presence is sweeter than my boyfriend’s presence. The fight to believe His Words over mine. It’s such sad fight because I know once I position myself in His presence, I am filled with so much peace, so much truth that Jesus’ kingdom is the blessed one that reigns. Once my heart steps away from His presence, it starts to disbelieve. It makes me want to vomit sometimes. It’s terrible. I am the dog that returns to its vomit.

Jesus, I brought myself to a desert land. Strike me with Your Holy Spirit. I have disregarded You. Holy Spirit, I have avoided You. I have caused my heart to step away from Your presence for what I thought was sweeter to my soul.

Mercy covers your throne
Like a rainbow, like a rainbow
Here I find myself in the sweetest embrace
With a love I could never earn
And it's only in this place, that I am truly saved
Surrendered to beauty untold

Your mercy, it covers me wherever I go
Your kindness, it never ends, oh Lord

There's nothing I could do to change your mind about me
There's nothing I could do

Mercy flows from your throne
Like a river, like a river
Here I find myself in this healing embrace
It's a love like I have never known
And it's only in this place, that I am truly saved
Surrendered to beauty untold

Your mercy, it covers me wherever I go
Your kindness, it never ends, oh Lord

There's nothing I could do to change your mind
God, there's nothing I could do to change your mind about me

There's nothing I can do
To keep you from loving me
To keep you from wanting me, Jesus

Your love it never fails
Your love it never fails
Your love it never fails me
Jesus

You're a good, good Father
And you love your children
Slow to anger, abounding in love
You are so, so gracious
Oh so merciful
How he loves, how you love us so