Today I’m learning about the day to day fights. The fight within me that the Holy Spirit’s presence is sweeter than my boyfriend’s presence. The fight to believe His Words over mine. It’s such sad fight because I know once I position myself in His presence, I am filled with so much peace, so much truth that Jesus’ kingdom is the blessed one that reigns. Once my heart steps away from His presence, it starts to disbelieve. It makes me want to vomit sometimes. It’s terrible. I am the dog that returns to its vomit.
Jesus, I brought myself to a desert land. Strike me with Your Holy Spirit. I have disregarded You. Holy Spirit, I have avoided You. I have caused my heart to step away from Your presence for what I thought was sweeter to my soul.
