Some things that are on my mind

1) God, You know what I need
2) There is joy to not living (dying to self) and allowing You to take 100% of the wheel of my life. I'm too much of a chicken to face the world
3) Failure come and go, but it is in Your joy and wisdom to carry me through suffering to know Your love is unchanged.. down to the broken crevices of my heart
4) Success belongs to You and THAT in itself is BEAUTY because I'm so broken.

this exemplifies ex sola gratia

truly, this world is run by grace alone

"Without You" by Jordan Marcotte

I was like a house built upon the shifting sand,
unstable you could call me a wavering man,
with no hope and no home I felt all alone,
constantly living in fear of the raging storm-

Without You my life would be shaken,
without You my life would be taken,
Anchor of my soul, Anchor of my soul,
I will not be moved-

Your ear was inclined when You heard my cry,
Your hand was extended to a swallowed up guy,
my pride was my life and my only sure thing,
but sure things don’t last long when the strength is Your own-

Chief Cornerstone You’re strong enough You stand alone,
I will not reject You like the builders did in the days of old, I’m leaning on-
When everything around you is shaking and everything around you is moved, what do you do?
You stand, you believe, you trust and you lean, on the rock that is higher-
You are my hope-

feeling flimsy today

"My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus' blood and righteousness;
I dare not trust the sweetest frame;
But wholly lean on Jesus' name;
On Christ the solid rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand."

Hunt

It is the glory of God to conceal things,
but the glory of kings is to search things out.
Proverbs 25:2

Things taste better when you find them, right?

Consume us, Holy Spirit. We give You permission.

Day to Day - is it okay to be real around here?

Today I’m learning about the day to day fights. The fight within me that the Holy Spirit’s presence is sweeter than my boyfriend’s presence. The fight to believe His Words over mine. It’s such sad fight because I know once I position myself in His presence, I am filled with so much peace, so much truth that Jesus’ kingdom is the blessed one that reigns. Once my heart steps away from His presence, it starts to disbelieve. It makes me want to vomit sometimes. It’s terrible. I am the dog that returns to its vomit.

Jesus, I brought myself to a desert land. Strike me with Your Holy Spirit. I have disregarded You. Holy Spirit, I have avoided You. I have caused my heart to step away from Your presence for what I thought was sweeter to my soul.

Mercy covers your throne
Like a rainbow, like a rainbow
Here I find myself in the sweetest embrace
With a love I could never earn
And it's only in this place, that I am truly saved
Surrendered to beauty untold

Your mercy, it covers me wherever I go
Your kindness, it never ends, oh Lord

There's nothing I could do to change your mind about me
There's nothing I could do

Mercy flows from your throne
Like a river, like a river
Here I find myself in this healing embrace
It's a love like I have never known
And it's only in this place, that I am truly saved
Surrendered to beauty untold

Your mercy, it covers me wherever I go
Your kindness, it never ends, oh Lord

There's nothing I could do to change your mind
God, there's nothing I could do to change your mind about me

There's nothing I can do
To keep you from loving me
To keep you from wanting me, Jesus

Your love it never fails
Your love it never fails
Your love it never fails me
Jesus

You're a good, good Father
And you love your children
Slow to anger, abounding in love
You are so, so gracious
Oh so merciful
How he loves, how you love us so